I want to scribe but I can’t write
I want to die but I can’t kill myself
I want to run away but I am no ghost
I want to get bad blood but I can’t spill one
I want to slit my throat but hell my hands are stiff and shaky
I want to rip my heart out but I can’t ‘deep’ my hands into it
I want to go on the road and let the car come hit me but I don’t wanna leave my room
I want to hang myself but I’ve got no ropes around
I want to starve but I can’t help the hunger
I want to cry but I’ve got no tears
I want to see why but there is no reason visible
I want to breath but the my heart is too tight I gasp
I want to stop the thoughts but I cant hold my mind
I want to prevent the pain but it has no killer
I want to hit myself but there is no force
I want to loose it but I am already lost
I want to fall but I am already down
I want to spring back to reality but i got no strings or lost them
I want to drop out but the cabs are all high and gone
I want to halt my emotions but the I cant stop my heart from the race
I want to un to God but the devil tryna slow me down
I want to laugh over it but sadness chews my teeth
I want to talk about it but I am speechless
I want to pray but the connection with God is bridged
I know all my wants are not needed but I am Human I have to think.

Edited by: Cirphrank.

Ashburn is an engineering student from UNIBEN, a writer and a deep lover of photography, follow up on Instagram:Ashburn Fantasy

Editor’s Note: From the good read I got from this I love the fact that it’s heartfelt and I feel it. My best line: “I want to rip my heart out but I can’t ‘deep’ my hands into it” , it might have been a mistake she wrote deep, but there’s no correcting that, all about her, even her mistakes just clicks.

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  • Emmanuella Dunia
    Posted August 10, 2017 at 12:08 pm 0Likes

    Thanks alot Ms.Brenda.
    Really appreciate this

  • Cirphrank iWrite
    Posted August 10, 2017 at 12:08 pm 0Likes

    You are such a darling abeg, this is her blog😂, abeg bookmark us, infact if possible, notemark us join, in fact, mark Zuckerberg us too… Her Instagram handle is above, she doesn't taje shots regularly but when she does it's always natural and cool.

    Thanks for reading and commenting dear😘

  • Brenda's Couch
    Posted August 10, 2017 at 12:08 pm 0Likes

    This is a nice poem.. had to read it to the tail end after you advertised her on NSG as an engineering student with great hands with the pen…. am impressed. bookmarking her blog.

    When advertising a product, make sure it is a good one and sure this is a good one. Keep it girl.


  • Emmanuella Dunia
    Posted August 10, 2017 at 12:08 pm 0Likes

    Thanks alot Francis
    I really appreciate this.

  • Francis Bala
    Posted August 10, 2017 at 12:08 pm 0Likes

    I think it's great that young minds are being nurtured daily by poetry and this youngster is going to be nothing but one the future's great accomplishments. keep it up Ashburn, Your fantasies are more like reality you know?.

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